I wanna be with someone who makes me cry..is that weird? But not in a mean disrupted sort of way. But in a sweet heartwarming, even heart breaking way. I wanna be with someone who says these unbelieveable things that its like the greatest novel never wrote. Because its to precious to even be on a piece of paper. Someone who speaks words of wisdom when they talk to me, and I cant help but cry cause thats how much it touches my heart. It burns inside of me and im filled with so many emotions through these words. Words I never knew exisited. They were just discovered and it was all new to me. Like seeing a new born baby for the first time. I can actually feel my heart melt. The words and the way they say it.. makes me stay and makes me believe in something so pure and real. Something so hard to find. And that is love. They make me believe they truly love me. And thats of course by showing it, but the way they say it. its not one of those corny lines that gets every girl. No.. its the orignial words straight from the soul, through the heart, and out of the mouth. To make you feel wanted and needed, and cherished so much that tears fall from your eyes. Your knees begin to feel weak. and the tears show the affect of the words that were said. And in return..all you can say back is…I love you.
Honestly wanna give a huge ass shout out to this organization right here.
YELLOW RIBBON SUPPORT THE TROOPS,
Thank you for everything you guys have done to help us soldiers out and our families as well. It really means a lot. Thank you for all the information into getting us all ready for our deployment. To ensure that were not alone, there’s benefits with everything we need, etc. And of course thank you so much for the support. You say were the heroes but its the support from people like you guys that makes us fearless and strong. Thank you again.
On route to Afgahistan
little rant. dont mind.
sometimes i dont know if your feelings about me are all real and true. i cant tell if your serious about how much you like me and care about me. even with me..
i needed you today..and you werent really there. i mean i know i can be very stubborn sometimes..but isnt it your job to make sure, no matter how long or what it takes…to make sure im okay. to stay up all night til i fall asleep. and you by my side?
i mean thats what i would do for the girl im completely crazy over..
i mean come on..i really need you. now more then ever. theres so much more going on in my life that you have yet to know about. its not like i dont want to tell you..its just that i dont let anyone in that soon, that quickly. that they seriously need to know my everyday life story.
theres just too many things going on in my life its starting to be really hard for me to STAY FOCUS. about 34? days. thats how much i have left..2 days. thats many days i have til annual training. this saturday i will be working everyday for 20-21 days. the pressure is on. i have to stay focus. but how? how am i able to put all my problems, all my worries and emotions aside. how am i suppose to stay positive and be sure that i have it. i have what it takes. im getting off track..and i dont know how to stop. i dont know how to make myself okay. happy. how to enjoy every second i have left. times rushing and crushing me by. every second..i feel as though im being choked out. too much on my mind. too many things..i just..
…i just need you.